So the school part of Engineering sucks ass, so much homwork all the time and not understanding my classes really gets to me. I failed 3 of my 5 midterms. Not sure what I am going to do, I guess try harder, but I'm so fucking lazy all the time; Unmotivated. But, my friends get more and more amazing every day. If I am depressed, they go out of their way to cheer me up. And they are all funny as hell. On Friday, we had a video game party. With friends at home, we always played video games with was sooo boring, but this time it was great, I laughed the entire night. Then Kate, Kyle, Greg and I went to the Den and met up with Dan, Danni, Rogehlio, and Halley. Some of Dan's other friends were there too, and after awhile, some of us went out (not the people I arrived with, though) to meet Charlotte, which is what the engineers refer to as smoking weed. For some odd reason. After that, everyone went home, but Dan and Halley and Rogelio wanted to play fooseball, another engineering trend. I said I couldn't cause I had to be home soon (since my mom waits up for me, and she can't sleep in....) and Dan said he would walk me home, since he lives near me. So sweet. But I arrgued that it he didn't have to and it wasn't fair to him. So Halley offered to give me a ride home after the game. With the stupid engg rules, the game took 1.5 hours! No spinning is alloud, and if the ball last touched the opposite team member's ball, then the point doesn't count. The more I hang out with Halley, the less I like him, which is really good. For some reason, I feel really awkward around certain people, and Halley and Rogelio are two of them. I get all wierd, exp. if I smoke weed. Not sure why. I wish I could just be myself. Cause everyone seems to love the version of me that I am at school. But it's getting hard to be happy all the time and not reveal who I really am. ? Not that I know who that is...
Almost everyone at Uni knows that I'm bisexual and most don't have a problem with it, which is really good. I'm thinking of telling mom, since I think she allready knows.
I went back to Ponoka this weekend for about 24 hours. And 4 of them were spent driving and 10 of them sleeping. Big waste of time, but my father insisted that I come down, even though I only saw him for about 3 hours. And we had to have dinner at my grandma's and her boyfriend's. Gaahh, I dislike her so much. When she hugs me she never lets me go afterwards, her face inches away from me... invading my bubble! And I think she knows it bothers me because I'm always trying to back away, and she holds on tighter. I guess I will never get over the fact that she doesn't believe that her son-in-law sexually abused a ten year old for 6 months, namely me. Oh well, we can't choose our family. Anyways, I saw Dustin, Josh, Carey, Robbie, and Monkey. They are all so dredfully dull and do not ever talk. Blah. I was actually glad to have to go home after only 2 hours. Then yesterday I saw Ashley... she had a baby boy, Aidan Dean Taylor, on the 8th!!! He's so darling... I had never seen a baby so young, only 4 days old. I think Ashley will be a great mother, the way she is worried about every noise and action that Aidan makes. I would never be a good mother. I think I would hurt my kid, and I never want that to happen. (Have I wrote that before?)
Mom is starting to get very annoyed with me because I don't have the time really to helpl out around the house, I mean, I do dishes all the time and help with dinner, but I haven't done anything else since school started. Ha, insteed I'm here on DA, looking at other's deviations. So lazy...
I guess I should get back to my homework even though i have so much more to say.